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"memory takes a lot of poetic license. it omits some details; others are exaggerated, according to the emotional value of the articles it touches, for memory is seated predominantly in the heart." :tennessee williams, "the glass menagerie"

11.29.2007

found this the other day, from 10-1-06:

another sunny sunday from the recesses of the west building. a purple and grey sky outside, homework and low/yo la tengo/my bloody valentine inside. a row of empty coke cans. i’ve got a greek paper due tomorrow at 1:30 and i don’t even know where to start.

last night i took jenni out to dinner and afterward we walked around tallulah gorge. she straightened her hair and put on perfume; it felt good to notice that. things are very natural and simple; we had a lot of good talk and sat for a long time in silence in the dusk looking over the gorge. i’m still not quite used to having a girlfriend but i’m getting more so; there’s no doubt i have a particularly wonderful girlfriend.

posted by ethan # 11/29/2007 02:22:00 PM

11.08.2007

listened to luxury today and at work tonight i thought again about "black books," about the world, Babylon the great, ceaselessly bombarding us and bending us to its will. what a difficult thing it is to fight it, to make the unseen, constant choice within to shape one's life after something better, something innately hidden and disguised. the world clamors after the visible; it wants something tangible and immediate, while the Kingdom of God is by definition hidden and invisible, a matter of the heart, only partially manifest until the parousia. it has become increasingly hard to live in the hope of that Kingdom while the kingdom of this earth pervades every waking moment. i am a traitor many times over.

give up, just give it up
let them shape you as they will
DON'T SCREAM, DON'T SHOUT
be the lamb as its led out

they'll write this in the Book of Life above, i know
"capable of such great heights, such great lows"

posted by ethan # 11/08/2007 03:17:00 PM

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