mccarthyism

Things get so convoluted after a while. My life is a daily exercise in the hope that things aren't really as complicated as they appear to be. People make wrong sound so right. You'd think that after three years of college I'd finally begin to have a voice, to be able to adequately express and maintain what I believe. You'd think that, wouldn't you?

This weather this afternoon is beautiful, a little bit overcast but with the feel of spring, budding trees and warm breeze. I'm glad that by this time tomorrow I can put my books away, for a week anway. Things get convoluted and confusing, friends have trials and say hurtful things, everything gets monotonous and takes on a tedious sameness. But I had a good conversation with Luke just now, outside in the warm spotty sunshine, and I thought, who am I to complain?

No one reads this anymore; I took the link down (why was it ever up?), so this is just for myself.

Went to Greenville this morning for my student ministry. There were some good moments, but mostly I felt self-conscious and out of place. I talked with Matt H. for a while and was surprised to find that he's on much the same page as I am in a lot of areas. We talked about God's call and how the church has misconstrued that, also about seminaries (he, like me, always dreamed of going to Trinity but has now finds himself all but decided on going to SBTS). I thought about how likely it is I’ll find myself five years or so from now is an entirely different place than I’d ever envisioned. It’s a sobering thought. Matt is a person I kind of pigeon-holed at first. We’re from very different backgrounds and have varied interests but its encouraging to find we've come to a number of the same conclusions. It’s disturbing to think that the main difference between him and myself is his impressive work ethic. Man am I ever not there.

It’s dinnertime. I think I’ll go into town and find something. There weather isn’t getting any less beautiful as I sit inside. Afterward I’ll come back here and do some concentrated work.